Originally posted at Project Pedal

This is the parallel in the bike trip where I look behind me at far how I've traveled... and I turn to look at how far I've yet to go - and it draws self-doubt. Uncertainty. These moments of "should I go on? Can I go on?" are the ones that count the most when looking back.

I've got 10 hours of fairly repetitive footage from our month-long pacific ride... and zero useable audio. It's been weeks since returning and I'm still fighting back and forth the several possibilities of where to take this "short doc". Do I edit a direct cut of my intentions for "pedal"? Do I cut together a parallel story of our bike trip and it's similarities in filming an independent documentary? Do I convince friends to play the semi-fictional parts of other travelers we "hypothetically" crossed paths with?

A part of me says I shouldn’t show such an uncertain-side of myself… that I should instead, delete the above, and type a few paragraphs of “filler” for the night – maybe link to another slideshow. But I think these moments are important in filmmaking, in anything. They happen. They shouldn’t be ignored or suppressed, these moments are what the entire experience is about… it wouldn’t be an “experience” with out them.

I just needed to remind myself of this. I feel much better.