That was the post I wrote last night at about 11pm. But now I really have something I need to say.

Are we mad at Chuck for deciding L.A. isn’t the place for him? Of course not. Are we mad at him for going back to Michigan? Not at all. Actually the three of us (Billy, Mike, and I) have talked about it on many occasions over the last few months and have said that if going back to Michigan is what Chuck really wants then we want him to go.

Am I incredibly frustrated with him? Yes. I have so many feelings about Chuck. I’m somewhat disappointed, sometimes he drives me crazy like a brother would, and ultimately I really want him to be happy and I hope he finds what he’s looking for. I really do. I care about him.

But right now I’m really pissed. I’m just gonna say it. No more hiding. I’m pissed. There, I said it.

I’m just frustrated with the way he chooses to go about everything. He doesn’t talk to us. He does stuff behind our backs. A lot of his actions just aren’t what you’d normally expect from a friend.

So Chuck is leaving on Nov. 12th. You all heard it before we did. The only other reference, to this plan of his, which I’ve actually heard from his mouth, was about 3 days ago when he said I could have his chair because he’s “going to Germany so I don’t have anything to do with it”. The rest I just pieced together myself. Honestly it wouldn’t have surprised me if we’d come home one day to find him packing up and driving away, completely without warning (it wouldn’t be the first time he’d done that to one of us).

I just don’t understand how him keeping us filled in on his plans would’ve been such a hard thing to do. It’s just common courtesy. Especially for friends.

If we really are his friends, and he is actually concerned about our well being, he would’ve told us right away and kept us updated so that we could have plenty of time to decide what we should do about our living situations. Instead we’re left speculating and assuming. We’re making our best guesses about what we should do next. And ultimately we’re just unsure about what’s really going on. It’s just weird and selfish.

I don’t understand.