This blog has gotten pretty boring recently. I think you should all stop reading. None of us ever really post anymore... not that I ever did very much. And now Chuck has sworn off blogging for life, so really what's left of Caliblog anyway?

I'm sitting alone at the computer desk. It's almost 3 am and it's very warm in our apartment. It's currently 77 degrees in sunny California (only not really sunny at the moment). I'm listening to Ani Difranco and singing pretty loud so I guess it's a good thing no one else is here.

I feel smothered... stifled. My creativity is lost.

I've changed my availability at work now so I will actually have a bit more free time.

I want to feel alive again. I want adventure. I want love.

i heard the sound of your bike,
as your wheels hit the gravel,
then your engine in the driveway
cutting off

all i need is my leather,
one t-shirt and two socks,
i'll keep my hands warm
in your pockets
and you can use the engine block,
and we'll ride out to california
with my arms around your chest,
and i'll pretend that this is real
'cuz this is what i like best

So my Step-sister and her friend moved out here last week. She started school this week. She looked at places on-line before she came out here. Mike and I went to check one out for her earlier and when she got here she saw it then signed the lease the next day, so that worked out really well for her. She's very lucky. They stayed the night with us on the floor the first night and then moved into their new place the very next day. I would've let them stay longer if they'd needed to, feel sort of obligated since someone did it for me... but it's a good thing they didn't need to since I'm not sure how much everyone else enjoyed them being here. It's nice to know there's a girl not so far away I can hang with if I need to... but honestly, I know we'll both be pretty busy.

We're very different... her and I.

I miss Jenny.

She's my spirit... the painting inside my soul... my inner peace.

I'd really like to live with a girl, I think. I tried to convince Lorrie, Mike's friend from work, to move into a new place with us but she's happy still living with her parents rent free. Damn.

A few nights ago it was, Mike's other friend from work, Zack's last day. It was sad. I miss him already. We were really just getting to know each other. But I have a feeling we'll be hanging out more in the future. He had a party at his place that night. It was a lot of fun. Lot's of people from work... some that I know but I'd never really talked to before so it was cool to get to know new people. Zack is cool... I think we'd get alone well. He's an extremely intelligent, funny, gay, black guy. He's always trying to help Mike out with his fashion sense. That's so nice of him.

My Godfather (Uncle Thurman) and his wife, Tricia, are expecting now. I'm pretty excited. It's their first. I honestly haven't even seen them since the beginning of the summer. Although I have cat / house sat a couple of times for them. Tricia says she's as big as a house now. I can't wait to see her.

Today at work I set up a home delivery for Sherry Stringfield, she was kind of bitchy.

So I'm going to bed now... and like I said.... I'd stop reading now, If I were you. Check back in a few months. We suck :)