Originally posted at Proj:Pedal...

Recently, I remembered that one of my original intentions for this site was to help other indie-filmmakers - but when I say "help" I obviously don't mean in the same way that SunDance helps, or the same way IFP helps, but in a way that sometimes we newcomers desperately and unknowingly need the most... emotionally. [For me] to hear directors admit that their films were an uphill struggle and that, more often than not, their films were in danger of being red-lite or just falling apart right in-front of their eyes. It reminds us [little-guys] that a few [or an overwhelming amount of] "bumps-in-the-road" are how these things play out.

And in remembering this, I realized that I need to be more emotionally open in my post, quicker to admit that everyday I wake up and ask myself if I can still pull it off in the 'x' amount of days I have ahead of me? Will I find the money I need? Will I find a crew [up to the challenge] by late May? Will my film touch people's hearts like my first trip touched mine?

If this site never brings in the money I need... if this site has nothing to do with the search for a crew... all I hope from it is that out of the billions and billions of aspiring-filmmakers, just one stumbles onto this site, reads my story and the slow progress of preproduction and is inspired to push on with his project... or even better, to begin a project thats been on the back of his / her mind for who-knows-how-long.

Having that said that, I would like to admit that things have been a bit slow around here, I've been playing the waiting game with a few aspects of the project and fallen into a rut of "unintended-laziness". It feels good to get that off my chest. I'm far from finished... I've just found myself dragging my feet, I suppose these things happen - but with six-months left to go, I've got just enough time to take a deep breath, push-on and pull it all together... or die trying.